Today is not a good day for me. I feel like crap, I want to go home and go to sleep. I have a feeling I have let down some important people by not being there this weekend for them. I just hate when this dark deep depression rears its ugly head. I wish I was done with this and on the other side. I know it’s a battle. I know I have to fight for every good day, but sometimes, on days like today I want to give into it. I want to go to bed and not get out. I want to turn off my phone, turn off the lights and sleep. Maybe read or watch a movie, but I don’t want new adventures on these days. Just golden oldies, things I have read or seen a 1000 times so I am not missing out on anything.
I am being really hard on myself today. I can’t even type as fast as the insults are flying through my head. Yep, today is not a good day. Today needs to be over.